one more month to exams!! stress stress sigh sigh.

hopefully everything will turn out well.
kinda frustrating when you keep studying but it seems like nothing goes into your head and no matter how hard you try it seems to be the same. and you wonder why others can do it so easily and then comes peer pressure and stuff.

sigh, weather is getting colder,.
its funny, when i was young, i wish that singapore would have four seasons. i was so envious of other places that has four seasons and i was so amazed that places snow, not that i'm not amazed now. i still am. but then going somewhere which has four seasons is enough.. but not living there for the rest of your life! i'm missing the weather in singapore. even though everybody is complaining about the hotness. but its better than the coldness. when its cold you just dont feel like doing anything and just hiding in your room, not going out, not doing anything. plus have to pile on clothes and apply lotion because your skin is just so darn dry!

i guess we always think that the grass is greener on the other end. how can you not think so when all you know are the information that you've gotten out of friends, family, internet, tv,newspaper. you will never know. until you experience it. what someone likes may not be what you like. everything just cannot be generalized. thats what makes humanz so complex. we're same in some ways, but yet so different in others. we will never know what is inside the head of others. when someone will turn their back on you. when someone will suddenly remember you and then feel glad about it and then again feel guily that you didnt think of that person too. well maybe a good explanation is that humans are not perfect, but by this theory we can get away with almost everything.


learnt from psychology that when we;re young, we tend to make friends to get more information. we want a whole network of friends, even though we know we wont talk to them in the near future, or we would only utter a word of hi and nothing else.
but when we're older, we tend to only focus on friendships that are of value to us. ppl that we can really related to and rely on. we tend to have more true and lasting friendship and we get even more social support even though we have lesser friends. so you see more friends doesnt equate to more social support. the most important thing is that you have a close network of friends.
but then again, when we're young we want to know more about everything, and in order to do that we need a whole lot of friends to share their knowledge and experience with us. so once in a while we'll pop by and say hi. given the technology now, its not all that difficult, with a click of the mouse on facebook it can be done in like 5 sec. the power of technology.
i have 500 friends on fb. but maybe less than 50 friends that i keep in regular contact with.

10% of friends that i really know about.

what about you?